This is more for me than the hypothetical people that visit this page. I'm twenty, better get some of the life details hammered out.
My name is Ryan J Moulton. I was born in july of 1986 which means horoscopically I am a cancer. The other day I was worried I had cancer but I don't think I do anymore.
Question that makes me uncomfortable: "What kind of music do you listen to?" I either avoid answering it or just say "All kinds" and hope the conversation shifts. Once someone said, "Well, that means you don't like any music..."
I'm pretty sure I told that person to shut the crap up.
I really like to live vicariously through tv and the internet. I should probably get through this habit and start living.
I want to be self-employed someday.
Ever hear that song by that band Plumtree? The song is called "Scott Pilgrim." I have heard it.
You probably haven't. Don't lie.
I was thinking about morality the other day and tried to reason out my personal moral code.
I have a personal moral code. I think?
Anyway, I decided there were two kinds of morality: internal and external.
Sometimes I like to say people's names. I've heard that saying someone's name in casual conversation with them is a sign of friendship. Also, name-usage will help develop friendship. I don't know if this has anything to do with me liking to use people's names as opposed to just "hey you" or just jumping into conversation.
I've had various websites online since before this millenium started. I don't really tell people about them. Even this one. That you're here is kind of a mystery to me.
What am I ashamed of?
I don't usually get mad. Things that do get me mad though: telephone companies. Lack of trust in me. My failure.
I can't remember if I don't believe in time or that I believe time-- OH. Ok, right. I just don't believe in time as something that is just a line. It's kind of like a mountain range.
Have you ever drawn charts to, uh, chart your romantic interests over a period of time? Me neither. I only sketched that chart.
Lately, I've been attracted to the aesthetic of naming things like "Alpha Event" or "Beta Event" etc. I link this idea to an episode of a tv show that was a series recap and, later, a clip of nuclear bomb footage.
I spend too much time on facebook. I don't actually do anything on facebook.
Remember imprinting? They talked about it in middle school biology. It's when a baby duck locks onto its mother for life and by doing this learns what it is to be a duck.
I might be wrong.
Anyway, I've been thinking about how we model ourselves after what we see around us and in the media. Go find a role model.
Do I have a role model?
Ever hear about those people that don't believe other people are sentient beings because there is no proof/they just decided to believe that? I don't believe they exist.
When I was in seventh or eighth grade I made a movie for this "Social Studies" project with a friend of mine. Our movie was called "The Elian Gonzalez Crisis." I put "Social Studies" in quotation marks because that's the most bogus name for a school subject ever. I don't remember what the movie was titled, "The Elian Gonzalez Crisis" is my best estimate.
That was the first time I was involved with the destruction of a camera. I felt so bad.
Someone must have said that if you Pre-Visualize you can make stuff happen. That only worked once for me. Or rather, once that I noticed. And even then, she had already seen the movie so what's the point?
I probably like you.
I lost track of my lifetime average after it was 1 for 8. Then there were a bunch of technicalities and weird awkward things? I don't know.
It's hard for me to pick favorite things. Why do we do that again?
Ummm...
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